I just reread my last post. Wow. I most certainly have crossed over the line between clean, moderate, acceptable faith and the gooey, change you into a Jesus freak realm. And I don’t know how it happened!?
There I was, minding my own business, doing church, serving, reading my Bible, engaging in Bible studies, being an all around good Christian and *BAM*, God came in and disrupted my groove. I used to be cool. Now, I’m this weirdo that says things like, “I’m feel God is leading me to pray about you and your mother right now.” FREAKY!
You either get that look of, “where is the door?” or you get tears. Neither are terribly great conversation conductors.
The craziest thing about all this weirdness I got going on now is that…I really like it. There – it’s out…I said it… I like it. I like the freedom I’m experiencing. I like not being so afraid of what everyone thinks of me (although I still want you to like me!) I like seeing God’s hand actively at work in my life.
Matt Chandler has the best quote about spiritual growth:
“He grabbed hold of every part of me and has absolutely ruined me for anything but Him. The process of sanctification has been and still is quite often a very difficult one. No one told me (or maybe they did) that Jesus wanted my heart. I thought there was going to be some behavior modification and some new friends but I didn’t understand how He was going to search and destroy in me anything that wasn’t of Him. Nor did I understand how dark my heart truly was and how out of fear, pride and arrogance I would argue, complain and resist almost every advance of the Holy Spirit to reconcile every part of my being into holiness.”
This journey hasn’t been the nice, neat, comfortable ride I was lead to believe it would be. It’s been messing, often painful, and rather uncomfortable. However, I find myself more and more comfortable with my life not looking like I thought it should. NUTTY.
Nice, neat, and comfortable is also utterly boring. There is never a dull moment out here in daffy land!
I’m RUINED…
God never asks us if we are capable or gifted or talented enough to do His will. He doesn’t ask if we’re strong enough or wise enough to handle it. He wants our hearts…our passion… He simply asks, “Are you IN?” Heart, mind, soul, and strength. R U IN?
Did you catch that play on words? Ruined and R U IN? Cleeeverrrr….
Does Jesus get all of you? R U IN for being ruined for anything else but Him? Try it. It may be a bit wacky but it will never be boring!
