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August 29, 2010 by Teri Frana.
A couple weekends ago, my friend was in a half-triathlon, I think. I didn’t get all the details. (Why anyone would call a 67 bike ride, a 3 mile run, and some kind of a long swim, “half” - I’ll never know.) Anyway, it was during the bike ride when my friend’s strength faded and he fell to the back of the pack.
Soon, a friend of his dropped back with him and without saying anything, put his hand on my friend’s back and gently pushed him up with the rest of the riders. In fact, they made it to the front of the pack for awhile. His “pusher” let go and my friend eventually slipped to the back of the pack again. Several times, the “pusher” came and pushed him up with the rest of the pack.
This generous act deeply affected my friend. It also tugged at something deep within me. And it still is. You see, this next phase of my life, I’m going to need a lot of “pushing” from others. It is driving me a bit crazy thinking of all the needs I’m going to have and how much others are going to need to “push” me forward.
This morning I looked up the word “push” in my Bible. However, each time it is used, it has a negative connotation. It reads like someone is being manhandled. As I prayed and meditated on it, I felt God saying, “I will not be pushing you, I will help you.”
I realized the way I am thinking about it was wrong. Honestly, I’ve been seeing it from a very prideful mindset; I actually feel really guilty that others are going to need to push me along. I should be able to do it myself, shouldn’t I?? I see a whole lot of “me” and “I” reflected there.
I looked up the word, “help” in my Bible and it gave a whole new perspective on things:
I could keep going with these, but I think we get the idea..
In God’s eyes, help is something we do out of love and mercy toward each other. God to us, us to others with God’s help. It is part of who God is and wants to be in our lives. I think of how I feel when I help others, I certainly don’t see it as “pushing”. I see it as an honor to walk along beside someone, helping them reach the goal before them.
Why do most of us struggle when the shoe is on the other foot? For me, it’s pride and fear - pride that I am capable or should be capable of doing it on my own - fear of needing to rely on others and God to help me. As I confess both of these things, it looks pretty pathetic in black and white, doesn’t it?
May God give us all eyes to see those who need our help, and all hearts who graciously and humbly accept help when we need it.
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July 21, 2010 by Teri Frana.
There’s a subject that’s been on my mind a lot lately and that is physical fitness. After seven years in the dark nights, I find that I let myself go quite a bit.
Seven years ago I was very fit, ate healthy, and exercised five to six days a week. I loved the feeling of being fit. I wasn’t skinny by any stretch - it was just no part of my body jiggled. When I waved goodbye, only my hand moved.
When I entered into the dark nights, (you can read the series starting with this post), exercise was the first thing to fall off my plate. It wasn’t because I wanted it to fall off, though. Now I see that it was God who not so gently took if off my plate. Injury after injury, illness after illness plagued my workout schedule. Within a year, I could barely run any distance before I gave out.
Now I see that God took exercise away from me to show that my fitness had become a god (with the little ‘g’). It was a source of comfort and pride to me that I was fit and trim. It made me feel powerful. God wanted to show me how something healthy and good could become something I desired more than Him.
Here it is seven years later, yeah - I’m not much of a quick learner, and God has finally led me out of the dark nights. I’m thirty pounds heavier, addicted to sugar, and very out of shape. Although I’m convicted to get healthy again, I don’t feel the contempt for my very untrim body that I did before.
Yes, I need to exercise and eat healthy again, but I no longer feel the desperate desire to fit back into my old clothes. It no longer drives me like a crazy fiend anymore. Being freed from the “gotta get skinny because I hate my body” thoughts is very powerful.
On the other side of it, I do feel convicted by God to get healthy again, but in the sense of being whole. God wants us whole and healed. I want to exercise and eat right because it gives me more energy and it is really good for the body God gave me.
However, I know my tendency is to make fitness a little god. I’ve been praying for God to show me how to keep Him at the center of my fitness. The answer is SO simple. Make fitness an act of worship NOT the recipient of worship. Yeah!
Here’s how that looks for me. I get up about an hour or so before my five year old would wake up. I do my daily devotional, the quick one. So I can put something in my mind to ponder. I start out walking and focus my mind on Jesus. This is not easy for me, I have a very tangential mind, so I have to train my mind to focus.
For me, I start out to the rythym of my walk or run and think to myself, “Jesus is ….” and complete the sentence. Jesus is my Lord. Jesus is my friend. Jesus is my God. Jesus is my redeemer. Jesus is my Savior. Jesus is my protector. Jesus is my provider. Jesus is the intercessor. And so on, until my mind is focused on Jesus.
Pretty soon, my mind relaxes into a good dialog with Jesus. Some days my heart is aching and that’s all we talk about. Some days I pray for the saints. Some days I plead for my family. Some days I simply listen for the still small voice.
Then I come back and stretch. I used to dance and so stretching is very important for me. As I stretch, I thank God for something. I go through a “thankfulness inventory”. Then I can sit down and be calm and focused enough to read my Bible and do a more in-depth Bible time.
This typically takes about an hour and some days I have an hour and a half. But, you need to make the time work that you have. For me, my fitness, worship, and devotional time is invaluable to my walk. I make it a very high priority. It costs me the TV time that most others take. But, I haven’t missed it much.
I try to do something every morning but on Sabbath. My Sabbath has become Fridays. But yours has to work with your schedule.
For food, I take God along with me to grocery shop. “What do you want me to have, Lord?” Asking God what He wants you to eat is a good way to keep Him at the center of your fitness. I also try to make eating an act of worship. This one is harder for me because frankly I really like Taco Johns. God wants me to eat Taco Johns, but not five days a week like I’ve been doing.
The weight is coming off and my fitness level is increasing. Praise God. But, more than that, my devotion to Christ is increasing along with my freedom from slavery to “I gotta be skinny” monster.
Here is another blog that speaks to the importance of fitness and discipleship. May you spend some time and focus today making fitness an act of worship…
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July 9, 2010 by Teri Frana.
Lately I’ve been aching for a supernatural experience. I haven’t had many in my life which makes me sad. I think that means that I haven’t been in a position very often that required some divine intervention or that I haven’t stilled my soul enough to drink God in very deeply.
I read this blog this morning and it made me yearn for more encounters with God’s heavenly realm.
Today, I am trying to open myself up to receive all that God wants to give. I pray for a spiritual encounter I can drink in deeply to sustain me. I long to live a life which is so filled with these types of encounters that God is glorified and known. I pray that for you too…
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